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What am I doing here?


 I'm not pretty sure about what am I doing here? but I still thinking that things happens when it has to. Well, I know that is something so superstitious and maybe no clear at all, but I know that if I'm here it's for something.

 Last semester I have a lot of problems, problems that I can't even move on nowadays at all. These problems makes me being absent on some of my favorite classes, I couldn't stay on school because, you know? sometimes free time makes you think a lot. I remember this bad days and I just want to cry because I can't understand HOW COULD I LEAVE MY GOALS? and here's when I said "everything happens for a reason". 

 The last semester was the saddest ever in my life, crying all day all night. No seeing reasons to stay here. Saddest, saddest. But now I'm so thankful to keep and move on, well not at all because it's something really hard, but I can say that right now I'm 98% cool.

 But, that's not the point, the question is what am I doing here? on my English Class, in CU, on the UNAM and the answer is I DON'T KNOW because yes, right now I don't know what is lifes sense or what is the reason why are we all here, but if there's something I know is that I've never prefered a time to be alive than right now. It's my gold moment. 

 And if  I can't see what is the unique sense of being alive is because I love all the things that I have right now, I love having a great and lovely family. I love to be received by my little Molly and hers tiny tail moving when I get home. I love my friends and the way they makes everything it's so shiny. I love my mother with all my soul, she's my angel. I love my brother, he's something like a cheerleader and makes me feel like probably I am. I love my father, even that he's the angriest man I've ever known. I love me and my superpower to smile and look up every little thing in this world. I don't know, I'm really thankful with my life right now and all the big opportunities that has been presenting in my life. 

 And here I am, one more semester in the "amazing UNAM", taking class at 08:00 pm, after a long day but writing this so excited and relaxed because we are when we need to be. Maybe you don't know or understand why somethings happened to you, or why do you need to travel a lot of minutes just to come to learn about something, but believe me, you are doing this and all these things because you deserve the big thing that it's comming. 

 You are the best and if you stay here even all the mishaps that you have being throw it's because something really amazing will happen to you. So don't take everything personal, breathe, relax, believe in yourself and be thankful with all the things that are happing next to you. Enjoy the travel because at the end you just gonna take a "puño de tierra", nothing material just a lot of good and bad experiences. But this is how life is and we can't do anything, just enjoy. 

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  1. Antonia Godoy9 de septiembre de 2019 a las 6:02 p.m.

    I really get what you are saying, sometimes we feel so overwhelmed by our thoughts that we start to loose our way. It's great that now you see things different and in a sort of "positive" way. What counts al last is that you managed to get out of that feeling and started to seek your health and happiness.

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  2. Karen L. Claro 9 de septiembre de 2019 a las 6:25 p.m.

    Doing things just for enjoy is valid as learning English to get a job. We tend to not enjoy things, we should take a breath and analyze if we actually like what we are doing. I like your passion.

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  3. Jon Snow9 de septiembre de 2019 a las 6:34 p.m.

    Is not always easily trough the problems and come out just fine of them. It takes time, but definitely have a pet, and have his or her love is, a very good remedy when you are very sad, they are lovely. In some cases when you are very depress, stressed out or deeply desolated drink a cup of chocolate or tea very slowly can help.

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